woke up ard 4 diz morning. still tired from 3-4 hrs of sleep, i told myself that i would go hm straight frm sch.. n sleep.
unfortunately, reached sch n found out tt ystr physics remedial was postponed to today. went for morning assembly n got scolded. haiz. early in the morning. was suppose to go back to class but stood n talk at back of hall with yr n a teacher instead. oh yeah, btw today's breakfast is postponed till july during lit lessons. cher, i wan a happy meal !!!=)
stayed back afr school for 10 mins before the msg was passed tt physics remedial postponed. AgaiN.
wanted to go back but decided to accompany shaun, hajar n mayer to cp instead. spent a few mins in canteen playing scissorspaperstones wif mayer. winner gets to drw on the other person's hand. ahaha. quite lame but hey, we were bored. so went we left sch, we both had some stupid drwings on our hands =p
walked ard cp. quite bored. almost died frm the bag's weight coz being the 'clever' me, i thought mus clear the tables =/ still got a few bk under the table though. left n reached hm abt 4. wee !! earliest time i've ever reached hm these past few days.
shall stop blogging now. n start mugging.
to all muggers out there,
" all the best!!! "


things seem to be better btw us, n im glad. i just hope, things will continue this way ....

mmmmm midyear
ahhh!! struggling now. wonder how i'll cope ltr on =/. shucks.
cher was talking abt the mt papers. how soon it is. 29/may. damn. hope can get a1 den at least don have to sit d paper again.
ahh. thou shall stop here. thou shall start revising. =)

faaalllllllllllllllliiiiiiinnnnnnggg again . haiz.

okieee.. can sum1 tell me how d heck am i suppose to study for ss test 2mrw??? there's this sort of opening celebration going downstairs. the opening of the park. n its like.. so damn noisy!!! arghh!!!!!

okeyy.
made up my mind. decided to to have new resolutions starting frm 2mrw.

freaking ****. ahh!!!!
feel like screaming. unfortunately, im not alone at hm so i cnt do dat =/

its amazing watching what ppl can do. was watching the just 4 laughs variety. got 1 part where they showed penguins playing musical chairs. n when i say penguins, i dont mean real penguins. i mean ppl in costumes. they're huge.. bug bodies wif their flappers? wings? hand? wadeva u call it
was cute.. they waddling ard the chairs. when the music stops, they also stop blurr. den they waddle to the chairs. can even push each otherand the other falls. haha. chairs are taken away weneva one does not get to sit. they can even stomp the floor. =)

Stayed in sch. chatted till almost 4. n slacked. started work ard 4.30. ishish. shud stop slacking. shud start working hard. exams cuming. less then 1 mth. oh my gosh. n so much more to study.
gonna give myself a treat for studying juz now. gonna watch american idol. may post another post ltr. till den, cya guys =)

feeling drained right now. so many things have happened this past week. And i dont think i like it.
people are changing. they never seem to be who they used to be. maybe they think they're changing for the better.
but in my eyes, you've changed for the worst. maybe to you by changing your ways, people will respect you more, listen to you, do what you asked them to do. but to the rest of us, it seems like people hate you now. every single person.
you claim that you do everything for a reason. but when you tell us those reasons, it never makes sense to us. does it make sense to you?
you claim that we are not up to standard. but how is that possible. yes, its true that we are now in charge, a month and a few weeks since we took over. and yet, to you we're not doing our best. you're wrong. we ARE doing our BEST Like some said, we're use to working together. yet now we're forced to work on our own. it 'll take a long time to cope, to adjust. i thought you, of all people would understand. and yet, you don't seem to understand. its bad enough that we do not have any reference to fall back on, to refer to. and yet.. you're acting like all this is our fault.
you claim that you never come after us for our work. its true, you never come after us. however, its the way you keep talking about it. your tone of voice, your attitude. its harsh. it hurts.
the times we tried talking to you. we tried telling you what the problems are, from our point of view. and yet, you never seem to get what we're saying. you change the topic several times. you answer us, but thy're not the answers to our questions. the way you answer, soft but dangerous.
we've sat down, all of us. tried to talk things through. i thought things would end, and that they'll go back to the way they used to be. and yet, it wasnt. people are still angry with you. asked you questions. and yet, you never did answer directly. i thought it would be professional, the way we settled things. and yet, you tried to bring in a teacher. people are shouting at you, trying to make you see the way we see them. ended up crying. and i don't even noe why.
when you asked me for my opinions. i didnt dare say. not to you. not face-to-face. not at that point of time. i knew you. since last year. i know how u work. i know how dedicated you are to your work. and i admire you for all that. always calm. and yet, you've changed so much. your're no longer the same person i used to know.
yes i was angry with you, the way you now handle things. the way you blame people. and yet, i can understand why. but why do you keep on denying. half of me wants to defend you when people talk about you. but the other half agrees with them. why do things have to be so complicated? why cant we just forget evrything?
i'm sure everything is a misunderstanding. so why cant we forget everything that has happened, and put them behind us. we've not much time, so lets make the best out of it shall we?
i know there's a 50-50 chance of you coming to my blog and read this post. but if you are, then i hope you know that this post is meant for you. i'm sorry for not saying all these directly to you, face-to-face as it would have been better. but i just cant. i'm afraid of breaking down n cry..
i'm sorry for all that i've said. both parties are at fault, i do not deny that. you for having changed. and us, for not understanding you. but i hope we'll be able to forget everything and work together again, just like we have before you changed. please?