wohooo!!!
found the book. as suspected, it was under one of the tables. how it got there coz i wasnt even sitting there, i have no idea. ahh. all thanks to steph who found it. ahaha
been helping bro with mt revision for the past hour. ahaha. felt so good helping him. hehe. seriously. its feels good to be nice to him at times. at least we're not fighting.
had innova jc talk just now. ahh. im confused as to where to go after this. prelim results were suckish. haiz. donno what to take. argh!!!
sheesh. gonna go start on hw. damn a lot lahh. haiz. annd there's a bio test 2mrw =.=

my gossshhh
of all the many million things in this wrld, i just had to misplace my lit book. haiz. as much as i detest that book, this is just simply a disaster. sheesh. i dont even know where i misplace-d it. the last thing i knew, i was searching my whole room and also under my table for the freak-ing book. unfortunately, i still have no freaking idea where the book is. oohh myyy. im dead.dead.dead. eargh!! now i guess i have 2 choices. either to continue my search for the missing book or just to simply buy a new one. such a waste. notes are all in there. just hope i can get it back sOon. i need it baaddlyy.
its kindda depressing to think of it. no matter how much hardwork and effort you've put it, u just dont see the result you wanted to see. thats the worse thing of all. haiz.
but, nvrmind.. there's still time. still able to buck up and do my very very very best. this is not yet the end of everything.

23rd sept
accompanied mum and dad to send my aunt to the airport. ahh. love that place. hehe. its a nice place lah. lots of foooddd. anndd i wanna go take planeee. =D
reached home ard 5+. wahh. the first sat without tuition. fuunn. hehe. too bad its continue-ing next week. =(
was sick at night. eee. kept on vomiting. haiz. as a result, did no studying. stupid
=(

24th sept
ahh. caught spore idol on tv. watch-ed the last 15 mins only. hahakz. dont really bother who wins. but the fans seem more enthu this year. ahaha. i like both jon's and oso hady's vocals lah. ahahakz.
gonna finish up the hw after this.
i don want tomorrow to come!!! i dont want the results!! eeee

caught 'the host' just now. it was quite a nice show lah. some hilarious scenes. vulgarities keep coming out but wdh, the movie was nice =) . at first thought it would be some sort of a horror movie, but apparently it wasnt. surprisingly we were not the only ones watching, some others also caught the same show. haha
was only looking forward to pe 2day; it was the only interesting period of the day. but mr tan came in instead to give out the cca form thingy. annd i got an A1 . wohoo!!!=) hehe.
assembly was... b.o.r.i.n.g. sheesh, couldnt they have filled it by some other performance??

Lit paper was horrible. marks were equally horrible.
never ever felt this disappointed in myself in my whole life.
sheesh
my goddd....
class phototaking today.actually sec 4s were not suppose to take the class pic, cause it wouldnt even be in the school mag. but apparently some ppl went to complain so in the end, yeah were to take the pic. wasnt as nice as last year though.i guess theres just no class spirit.
sc photo. were seperated into 4th annd 5th student council. got to sit infront with the blazer,but still, theres just no feeling. even the no. of members in the pic. haiz. last year was still the best lah.
sat down with them. ahh. i just lovee how they make my life seem more upbeat. we've had our share of joy and sorrow. but seriously, they are simply the best. fine, just now didnt start on a happy note. apparently there were some things we had to disscuss first. but we then went for lunch. annd i realise how much ive enjoyed being ard with them. i guess they help me shape the way how i am now.
reached home. was talking to my mum abt somethings. but she simply didnt listen to a word i said. eargh. she just kept silent. soo, so much for encouraging interaction between child and parent =.=

it seems like my vocab for the day is horrible
haiz

finally its all over. erm, on second thoughts, it not. oh well.
prelims ended today. wee! hehe. dad went to malaysia so had to take the bus early in the morning. haiz. thought i would be late. but i wasnt. thought i would hate the trip. but i actually enjoyable =). i guess it was the fact that today was last paper (which i didnt really bother to study anyway =/) that all were in talkative mode in school.
one classmate mention-ed that there would be marking day. thus all were looking forward to the day off. unfortunately there still school. annd we'll be taking class pictures. haiz. which means ;

have to go school. annd have to endure double CHEM!!.

ewwww.

im gonna miss the prelims actually. the seating arrangement and all. annd no lessons!! ahh. but sad, its over. oh yeaah, talking about prelims, shaowen came up with a new theory. hahakz. "since we come to school today for only 1 hr, den the sch shud compensate us with 1 day of holiday. " ahaha. how i wish it were true. 2 hrs means 2 days no school. den the emaths paper is 2 1/2 days? ahaha

apparently phototaking tomorrow. annd we have to wear formal. =.= i wann blazer...

i hate avoiding.

i hate being avoided.

i hate what you did.

i hate whatever is going on right now.

i just hate you

Wee. emaths was do-able. =) unfortunately forgot to cancel one thing. so, 1 m gone. haiz. just like that.
chem tomorrow. abit more then revision is over. eww. feel like giving up on chem. ahh. just gonna see how things go.
bro been playing maple lately. i miss maple =( nvrmind. wait till after O's. heehee. den can play all day long.
shall go back to studying chem now.

to the rest: all the best for the remaining papers!!

my first taste of 'national' exams. technically speaking, its not THE national exams but the conditions we were in was somewhat similar. thankgoodness,was seated forth from the back. ahh. away from the chief invigilator. not much pressure. though its damn stuffy in the hall. Who was the genius who wanted high ceilings?? we want fans!!!!
annd as expected, in the few minutes waiting for flag raising, some of the 'kiasu' ppl aroundd me were trying to cram last min factors into their minds. one friend, upon seeing me with no book in hand, asked "wahh. diyanah, so confident ah??" yeahh rite. i DID study. but not that confident. anyway, i see no point in looking through last min cause i cant remember them anyway.
yeah3, that was what i said, no use last min study. annd yet, while waiting for physics paper, all were burry-ing their head in physics notes. ahh. contradicting =/
social studies was a KiLLer. physics was relatively (easier?) than expected.
E-maths 2mrw. paper 1. then can go home early. yay =) too bad for those doing their mt paper. nyahaha.
Freak-ing chem is on wed. sheesh.
ahh. 2 papers down. 1 days gone. 7 more days to go0000o

`argh!! lets just get this over and done with!!

`freak-ed out. was freak-ing out. will most prob. be freak-ing out for the next few days. damn.

freak-ing out
only have 2 more days left

• to waking up late
• to watching the x-men evolution
• to mug for social studies and physics (which are on mon)
• to enjoy the 'freedom' of being away from school

actually the first one, i dont really care much. hehee. but i will miss watching x-men though, 12noon every weekday. sheesh =(

didnt really enjoy the week 'break' cause it really didnt seem like break. but at least it wasnt as bad as being back in school.

almost done with social studies and physics. haiz. hope can do well. i need an A for combine humans. oh.. i hopeihopeihope...

went to study with shaun and ruzaini yesterday. went to the school library at first. then had to cabut cause it was lunch break. went to bk to study instead. ahahakz. but as usual, around them its impossible to study. ahh. had so much fun though.

argh. gonna stop blabbering so much. and continue studying now.

been thinking lately. the world is full of wonderful things. and yet, also filled with not-so-wonderful things. i mean, look around and we should feel thankful for whatever we have, all the facilities and all. thankful that we are able to love and be loved by others. nevertheless, there are sure to be some people who just dont appreciate whatever they are being handed.
to tell the truth, i seriously have something against people who harm themselves. eversince it happened right before my eyes. well anyway, for some unknown reason, its somekind of trend some are taking on.

-" penknife anybody? or perhaps a sharp shard of mirror? nope? never mind. i'll guess this sharp end of a pencil will do. haiz. feeling so depressed. nobody cares for me. this pain im feeling will helps sooth the pain in my heart. " and then she'll be staring at the red colour liquid dripping down from the cuts. satisfaction. nothing else matters. in front of others, she puts on a brave front and act like nothings wrong. but when she's alone, she does it again.. and again.. and again.. till her wrists are filled with lines, scars. the wounds may heal, but the scars will remain for a long long time. to remind her of what she's done. friends beg her not to do so, stop hurting herself. but she's ignorant to all that. they're not her. they do not know what she's feeling. they dont know the sufferings she's gone through. but, she does not realise that she is not only hurting herself, she's also hurting others who love her, and care for her."
know someone who cuts herself. surprisingly, her parents do not know of it. but why? why must there be such cruelty in this world. cruelty to herself. hurting herself. her wrists are filled with scars. why?
pplpplppl.when something bad happens, its not the end of the world. help can be reached. nothing is lost =)

anyway on a happier note, have been able to cover up most chapters. wee =D 5 more days till the end of the holidays. (confident??) that i should be able to finish up everything. i hope. ahaha. but seriously, feeling the pressure give me the strength to carry on. =)

omg. i really need help with lit!!! not sure how to study. still trying to really understand 'krishna' and why he does the things he does. ewww

im not sure wether you're still visiting my blog. well anyways, just want you to know that i've been thinking lately. decided not to tell you on the last day of school. perhaps after my prelims..

just realised. talking to you gives me new insights to how i view things. and yeah, i get your point. should have seen things from his point of view. instead of thinking from our point of views. its not fair. with so many people against him. i believe he does his best. its not his fault that he's sacarstic. its OUR fault for not trying to understand him.
yeah. feeling damn guilty right now.
im sorry 'cher =(