Just got back from mlaysia. Haha. Was quite okey I suppose. Could have stayed at home and at least manage to finish up a bit of the homework. But oh wells, not going for religious classes tomorrow =)) so I suppose I have more time rather than going to woodlands stadium from morning till night.

Left the house so freaking early in the morning.. around 6 plus. But actually went for the wedding around 3. felt quite lost lah. Knew no one there. Haha. Naturally. I don’t even know any relatives there except for my grandfather. Felt quite weird seeing my supposedly uncle – had never seen him before. Apparently he was my mum’s cousin and the thing is.. he’s the same age as me. Haha. And.. on the trip back (and even now) dad and mum keep on commenting on how good looking he is. It just feels weird, hearing my parents commenting on a handsome guy my age, even though he's supposed to be my uncle. Haha. Okeeyy.. =))

One thing about the trip was that, it could have been better if they had actually put signs at the roads which were only HALF completed. Its very annoying since dad kept driving on a particular road in the rain just to find out that the road is uncomplete. And so, we had to turn back and travel all the way back. Haish.

Another thing was that, I kept dozing off. Haha. I have no idea why. Im not even doing anything lah – just staring out of the window looking at the scenery. I suppose there’s some kind of sleeping spell in dad car. =/ brought along the ‘restu’ book cause I though I could read it during the journey but.. I didn’t even touched the 1st page. Haha. Made my bag heavy only =(

There was this good looking guy. On the way back to spore during one of the stops, mum wanted to buy some kind of sambal. And the guy was manning the fruits stall nearby. Haha. I guess I only like his hair =)) okeey. That’s so random lah. Not as though I’ll ever see him again. Haha.

I wanna sleepp =( but I suppose I’ll finish up typing out the mly notes first =))





please dont say those three words.. unless they're sincerely coming from your heart

im tired
pissed off
and..
confused


arghhhh

i hate this feeling
yyy is this happening to meee.. i just cant help but feel guilty =/
haiz


i wann my skirt bacckkkk. nowww =(

weee. nurul has changed her subject combi.. now taking h2 malay. and so, shes coming to my class tomorrow!!!
yays!!
welcome to 135!!
-the class where there are only 2 guys. hahakz. yeap. damn pathetic lah. but. the class is not that bad lah

choir was somehow damn tiring. it left all of us feeling physically drained. dont ask me why. i dont know how im gonna cope for the next coming weeks. its bad enough that school ends at 4.30. and choir ends at 7.30. or so they say. it'll most prob end close to 7.45 after the announcements and all. and by the time i reach home most probably around 8.30. and im drained =/
and i still have research and maths to do left






someone hand me the knife please. im too tired

oh wait. i just realise that im contradicting myself - just yesterday i was saying that i love my life. sheesh

im tireeddddd
i guess if you do see me tomorrow, kindly dont comment on the panda eyes i will most probably be having =))

beginning to realise..
that jc life is actually
v. tiring.
haha
and yet. i love my life
i'll never change it with anyone else
well, at this point of time at least
=))

brother's watching mr bean right now. and the irritating laughter is driving me nuts. and as im typing all this down, hes playing with the toy airplane. sheesh.
was rushing like mad yesterday, trying to finish up 1.4 and 1.5 and the first question of 1.6. not to mention, the three paragraphs i did for gp. but in the end, we didnt even go through 1.5 and 1.4 is only to be handed up NEXT TUESDAY. sheesh. and as for GP, it wasnt even suppose to be written in the form of an essay. and i wasted all my time doing all the work. but nevermind, at least now i dont have to rush to do all the work.
school ended later then usual. because of gp. haiz. but never mind. headed off to np to check out the files for maths. and found out that it would be cheaper to buy them in school. and i saw this particular bag.ahh. i wanna buy. hehe. i guess i'll have to save up and hopefully be able to buy it by the end of next month. i just hope no one would fall for it and buy it before me. ahhh.
now.. i'll just start saving =))
tomorrow is gonna be B.O.R.I.N.G. double maths tutorial. rushing off to choir immediately after school. and ending at 7.30. noooo.
im tired







i'm afraid of falling...
but im afraid i already did

actually, have A LOT of hw waiting for me. but i just want to take a moment to relax before indulging in the world of maths and gp. choir was tiring. somehow. haha. and..
I'm in the syf team!!! yippee =))
now thats auditions are over, just have to concentrate on memorising and getting the parts right. especially the set piece. sheesh. and, there's now additional practices on monday from 5 till 7.30. nooooo. then how do i juggle with homework?? haiz. its around 5 more weeks.
aiming for silver!!!! =))
i felt so intimidated - but nevertheless, i shall persevere on. =))



can someone just kill me already. i just realised how much i have to do =(

phew. school was crazy!!! wahaha. actually, the new class not that bad lah. cause got shikeen!! haha. my new crazy partner lah - crapping all the time. weee =) trying to memorise the names of the people in class. currently able to remember 9 names. yays! though still have 11 more names to go. ahh. nvr mind. its only the first day. and i WILL get to know every single person in class. hee
found out that mr lit may not be teaching my class's tutorial. haiz. more like teaching me since im the only one in class who takes eng lit. not that im complaining. i just hope the new teacher is as crappy as him =)
had the briefing for project work.. early in the morning. sheesh. was just tempted to fall asleep lah. but no, had to stay awake cause they said it was important stuff. after listening to a boring briefing which lasted almost an hour and a half, i therefore conclude that project work is not exactly going to be fun. ahh. the thing is, we're not allowed to pick our own members. noooo
i think, i've been talking too much recently. haha. which, to me, is good lah, compared to me being all moody, antisocial, shy and all.
i still miss p23 though. jerene, jie ying and all. though i was with them for only a week, they're good friends =)
and i miss p20!!!! ahh. though i see some during the not-so-often-lectures which we have together, its still not the same. i miss the noisy class - especially with the constant laughter at the back of the class(coming from us actually. haha) and the guys random chatter - power rangers, chuck norris and pokemon(??) ahh yes, i miss every single one of p20-ians. =(

i think. ive been spending too much money. i should stop eating out. ahhh



im proud of you =)

Woots. Went out to eat with family yesterday. Then this really disgusting thing happened. Sheesh. Was so angry at her . What on earth was going through on her mind, I have no idea. Well, basically this was what happened.
Brother was playing in the timezone so dad went in to get him out so that we could all go home. Thus, it was me and mum waiting outside. Mum was talking but I didn’t really her hear cause I was looking down. Then I suddenly turned and saw this small boy, couldn’t be more than a primary 1 kid. He had his pants down and was actually peeing directly in line of the escalators. I was so shocked. I mean, the toilet was just THERE, a few meters away. Furthermore, the mother was just beside the kid, talking on the phone. She ignored the stares some passerby gave her and gave this ‘ I’m-busy-talking-on-the-phone’ and ‘I-just-cant-be-bothered’ look. There was this couple about to ride the escalator. They suddenly stopped near the kid and couldn’t move – they were afraid that the jet of urine would hit them. They stopped momentarily, then made one big round, glaring at the mother. But she didn’t even bother. She then closed her flip phone and pulled up her son’s pants, acting like letting her son pee in the way of people going up the escalators and in front of the entrance of Timezone is a normal thing. Brother came out and almost stepped in the not-so-evident puddle of pee created by the kid. Was so pissed off by the mother’s attitude that we walked away. And guess who did we pass by, the dear security guard who was coming from another direction. Was grumbling why he wasn’t at the scene when the incident happened.
Seriously. I only have this to say. What happened to the saying that we are considerate people? She certainly didn’t have others in mind when she allowed her son to pee there. Despite the horrified looks and disgusted glances she received by others who saw the whole thing, she acted nonchalant. Which really infuriates me. Had a mind to tell her off but mum said to ignore her – she was probably crazy.
I pity whoever who walks that way, not noticing the pool of urine and suddenly slipped and fell. I do wish she would slip and fall – in the exact place where she asked her son to urinate

feeling so freaking pissed off by some people's attitude.
sheesh
seriously,
go get an education

sheesh
seriously
some people have nothing better to do
if you dont like someone, do kindly keep it to yourself

im not stating any names here

=)

i need to go study =(

just got back home. went out with the exco for a movie. wee. it was avon's treat lah.
met at mac then we headed to cathay. haha. before that wanted to take neoprint but the shop closed down already. so we tried star factory. was wearing the sch skirt and was afraid couldnt enter so wore shermaine's jacket. haha. but, the machine was spoilt or something. sad. so we just headed off to choose a movie.
stomp the yard is damn fun lah.
go watch it!!
=)

i enjoy their company
but too bad today's outing was sooo super short
lets go out againn!! =)
and oh yeah. me and lynnette took some pics in the mrt
hahah
some ppl must have thought we were crazy =)
oh well

i wanna go out tomorrow =(
but..
i need to study
haish



im thankful for the caring friends i have. especially syu; yes im okey =)

to a certain person;

i didnt ask
to be infront and command
but lemme ask you
if it were you
wouldnt you have done the same
i didnt ask to be hated
neither to be condemmed
but seriously i have just this to say
i never really knew your true colours
up till now
i cant believe i stood up for you
but now, ive seen your true colours
i hate you




to another person;

is it too much to ask for
i didnt ask to be yours
i just pleaded for you to stop
and yet, the reply you gave me
i wonder why i even bothered
could it be that i cared
but now im questioning
do i even know you
i suppose, i really dont
i liked the image whom i though was you
but now i realise
it was all just an illusion





feeling so freaking pissed off right now
i feel like snapping someone's neck
or just doing something destructive
sheesh
just what the hell did i ever do to you????!!!!

im beginning to hate
everything in sight

i just broke up with him
seriously
i could no longer commit myself
ive got so many things to do
ive explained everything to him
and he said he understood
but hearing his voice
made me want to break down
but ive made my decision
i feel so bad
god
if only someone was there for me

wokays.
FINALLY ORIENTATION IS OVER!!!
woots.
the rest are planning to go out tomorrow. watching movie, avon's treat.
and im sad.. i donno wether i can go or not. sigh. no loonger able to work together with them.
no more Avon to disturb. no more wei han acting high. no more jing da singing. no more guodong pulling my rubberband. no more elizabeth to 'quack/meow' with. no more lynnette to be high with. no more shermaine to laugh with. ahh. no more all of them. though wei han wasnt included in the initial planning process, im gonna MISS every single one of them. awwww.
no more playing with the hamstie. no more trying to do the hula hoops, which i failed miserably anyways. no more all of us being high in the council room (okeys, more like i was the ONE being high).
though i have to say, orientation, no mater how tired we all got by the end of the day, no matter how much people hate us just because we were trying to maintain discipline, im happy to be able to be part of the whole thing. firstly cause i got to know such great people like the excos, abby, jason and others.. it was fun mingling around with the new people. not that i got to know my new classmates better since i didnt go scouts camp, but the new intake people.
im feeling thankful for all that has happened. and also for the new friend whom ive found =)

aniways. today went to school for bridging lessons. left econs halfway since we've learnt everything that she was going through. met up with lynard at np. went to meet syu. and we went nus.

whee.
i think im going crazy.
yeah. i am.
im damn tired.
oh shitty
got exam tomorrow
haiz






if only i could stop this feeling;
i would be glad to
before things turn bad

i guess i have a lot of things to cover. school. and the orientation planning so far. wokays. so start with school first lah ah.
i pon-ed class!!! wahaha. surprised myself actually. cause i never expected myself to do so. but then, its the truth and it has already been done. so yeah. its like, i skipped econs and pe and malay. =) we got back results slips on thursday. and it was so SHITTY. sheesh. did badly for like most subjs except malay and econs. and history except for the stupid map test which i wasnt aware of. -.- it was like so depressing lah.. seeing the paper filled with U and E and S with a few A and B here and there. the comments were okey lah. except for lit!!! wahaha. seriously, im gonna miss his lectures lah - if he's no longer gonna teach me. he crappy but nice lah. =)
and so monday's like the last day cause tuesday confirm not many ppl coming. im gonna miss the peole leaving the class - jamie who's going tp, breda, xuli, jess, kelvin whom i think is going poly, james who's going sa. wahh. im gonna miss them. *weeps* no more james to disturb. haiz.
i wanna take class pic on monday.... if people are in sch lah that is.
and most prob not gonna b in same class as mad, nurul and syu. coz they changing subj combi. NoOooooo. sad sey =(
the planning has been tiring so far. its like, we keep going through the timetable over and over ... and over again, like a million times lah. and each time we go through them, surely got changes. and the orientation is like next week!!!! sheesh. i just hope all will go well. its my first time working with new people in this school - and i want to make a good impression.
the initial plan was to have an ogl camp in school today. but, on thursday we found out that we were to go to this campsite instead where the ogls were gonna be trained as facilitators. so its like we - the planning com, thought that we wouldnt have anything major to do since its the organiser there who would be doing the training. then today we got a MAJOR shock when the teacher told us at last min that it was WE who would be doing our training. meaning we were gonna do the activities we initially planned for the camp and we were to have a time allocated time for the instructors to train the ogls in facilitation. Naturally we were shocked cause it was all last min. sheesh. to make matter worse, i was placed in charge - being the assistant head since the head had to go for his dentist appointment. gosh. had a tour of the place then shermaine went to rah-rah the ogls while the few of us planned with the instructors what games we would be playing. its okey lah i guess.. the games very dry and i prefer the scouts camp we went during the pae orientation. the instructor was very nice lah. she v friendly and funny. I had to brief the whole lot and i was like damn nervous lah. its kindda stupid lah i know, since ive been speaking to large groups in choir and also in sc. but lets just say i hate public speaking =/
we tried the two games then it was obvious that everyone was bored. the time was only around 12.30 and we had to wait for the freaking bus which was to come at 3!!! gosh. then it was the planning committee were at the bench there while the teachers went to 'discuss' with the ppl there as to why were were even there in the first place - to play only 2 games??? it was like me and guodong going through the timetable(again!!! -.-) coz now there would have to be some changes in day 3. then the rest were planning how to carry on with the day, trying to plan new games. but its damn difficult to concentrate when u're feeling damn warm and tired. in addition, ppl were pissed off with the arrangement of us coming there .. same like the teachers lah. ive learnt one thing about the heat - it causes people you least expect to go crazy and loosen up. which is a good thing lah. we were all laughing and joking at each others antics.
we didnt do much. played only one game afr that - and even not all grps played. a lot were complaining. the bus came earlier at 2.30. had a short debriefing and soon after, we were in the bus.
after the whole thing, i felt damn bad lah. cause i felt i wasnt being a good enough leader. if i were, i would have made impromtu decisions (cause leaders have to think fast on their feet what) so as to make things go smoother. and so, to be frank.. i think we could have done much much better today =( haiz


and oh yeah. on the way there, the teacher talked about me joining sc. gosh. then i just listened on while he talked about hoping to see my name in the applicants list in term 2 and so on. wahaha. im right now confused lah. wether to even join sc or not. haiz