its true that life's unpredictable. one moment you think you know someone but in the next moment, you'll find that you actually dont. shall not comment further on what happened today in class. didnt really burst out until we left the place. and yeah. was feeling freaking pissed off. im glad that my friends were there to comfort me.
had the meeting after that. fun bunch of people. i hope this event will go well and that'll show all of them.
was happyhappyhappy after that =)) no more elaborations needed. whee. im feeling exceptionally hyper right now. *grins maniacally*







i like this part of the story but i dont like parting

i think school's becoming a vampire - draining out the energy from everyone. sheesh. luckily im surrounded by people who make me laugh and ensure i survive through the day. =))
ahh. i think im stuck in a cycle. a damn boring routine in fact. coming to school do duty and see familiar faces. im not complaining here, in fact i like doing morning duty =)) get to see people. haha. then i'll have to drag my poor legs up to the 4th(%#^%#) floor just for 5 mins before moving to the next lesson venue. haiya. why cant my class be on a lower floor - like the 1st floor? =))breaks are the most looked-forward periods of the whole day. haha. yeahyeah. whats new.

im bored.
homework not yet finished.

greatgrandma was admitte dinto the hospital sometime this week. sad. i hope she'll get well soon. was supposed to come home today but aunt called to say she still has to stay. now mum and dad are visiting her.
`ohh do get well soon

had the leadership thingy yesterday. was expecting it to be boring. but in the end it turned out quite fun. ahha. i like the ballons part =)) too bad i forgot to take a picure of the tower.
didnt know that we had to do the ssp after the whole thing. so much for ending at 1. the course dragged on so it was close to 1.50 that we had to drag ourselves to the library to clock in when it was almost time for the rest to clock out. boo. but i have to say that it was quite productive. haha. same like friday. and since i'll be involved in the maths and science quiz next sat, i'll have to clock in back a total of 8 hrs. bleargh



i like the rain. i like the smell of it. =))
ohh randomness xD

listening compre was... okey fine. no comments. its OVER =))

sat - ahh yeah. satuday was super boring. gosh. totally wasted my precious saturday. grrr. though the games were quite fun i suppose *judging that there wasnt anything better to do*. sheesh. rushed to have dinner at np foodcourt before heading off to the esplanade for ms yap's concert. hehe. thanks to lynnette for lending me her jacket cause i woke up late and was not able to pack clothes to change -.- and so was stuck wearing the sch uni. wei wen slept on the mrt haha and lynnette took a shot fo him. hehe. funny. saw that security was quite tight in the area and was wondering why there were loud noises during the concert when i finally found out that there was a ndp preview going on. the concert was nice. wahh. im glad i went =))

mon - supposed to have a meeting at 7. as usual, came late. ahha. and did morning duty =)) my book was with charles and so was fretting over the absence of a&c book for the morning lecture when i suddenly remembered that some j2s also take lit. ahha. annd, got to borrow one =)) though the book wasnt even use din the first place. -.-
some things happened which i shall not elaborate here. but lets just say the day left me feeling mortified/happy and a bit scared. ahhh

today - slack day!! not many lessons went on today. the library was nice. so was the canteen. ahaha. no more elaborations will be done. the listening was tricky. went for dinner with mad, shikeen, ruz and helmi. fun lahh!!! the things we talked about - i forgot about time

no lesson tomorrow morning during the test slot since i dont take his nor geog. whee. and so shall go rest in the canteen =p

gosh. i just remembered that i hvnt told the rest abt 2mrw
i just hope that the survey thingy will go well tomorrow

ohh let us be able to work well and make the event a memorable one for them....

been getting some weird comments over the badge. haha
"KAN REFEREE REFEREEE WWEAHHH OOWAYS BERRBADGGEE DA GOLDDENNN"
what the speaker meant to say was that it resembles a referee's badge. i have no idea whether that is true since i have never seen one upclose.
another joked that we were carry gold bars. haha. and even asked me if it was heavy. * =)) *

anyways.. more on the investiture later

had the malay oral on monday. had to wait so freaking lo0ng. but it wanst that bad i suppose. mind went blank for a moment when they asked the question. looked at their faces, at the table, the clock before i started. haha. i just hope i did okey for it.

investiture rehearsals were tiring. really. though i have no idea why. ohh well. and the blazers were a nightmare. not that im complaining - haha. im kind pf happy i took up the job of taking care of the grey blazers =P the event was quite.. i have n idea how to descibe it. saw two people from ai but i have no idea who they were and neither did they know me. sheesh. took pictures (!!!) happyhappy =))
shall upload the pics once i get them. wee. shall not elaborate more here *grins*

yesterday was a super lucky day. i think thursdays have become my favourite day of the week =))
went for the first meeting since we took over. haha. and stayed back after that for the morning announcement thingy. stayed in the office this morning while announcements were being made. aww. i wont be geeting my turn anytime soon since they already delegated the job to those who are already used to doing the job. =/
went back to class and the first thing a friend asked was " eh u said the pledge right?" erm. okeey. so apparently it sounded like my voice over the PA system. haha. and another friend asked the same thing over msn. haha. NO people, it wasnt me today. haha.

*edited due to some circumstances* =))

this is total crap lahh

results were suckish. one U and one S. wahh. The U was kindda expected lah, since maths was totally eargh. but for the S. gosh. was really shocked. to make matter worse, someone brought my hopes up. and even the teacher was smiling when he gave me my paper. i looked at it.. and found out that i did super badly. And it was suppose to be one of my better subjects!! shitty lah. so pissed off.

today was crap. for no utter reason. been having these moodswings lately. one moment im all hyper, excited and all, the next you'll find me keeping to myself. so yeah. if u find me in the latter mood, its best not to talk to me unless you want me to snap ur head off. so people, if ive unintentionally snapped at you these past few days, do forgive me - im just not in the best of moods. and im suspecting this will continue for quite awhile.

i thought i was over the whole thing. but NoOoo. i just had to discover it NOW that im actually still feeling sore over the whole thing. and whatmore, it took a mutual friend to make me realise. i mean; whatthehell. the way he casually asked made me think back. his comments. wahh. i dont know him that well. but somehow, his voice when asking me why just made me want to pour all everything to him. its super weird lah. ive never thought of telling him so much before. but in that moment of time, i just couldnt think of anything more i would rather do then just tell him everything. putting down the phone, i realised that im feeling sad and kindda angry over the whole matter which was being discussed. sh!t.

i shall not pursue the matter any longer

mixed feelings are running through my brain now.

i think i need that someone to confide in

feeling super tired right now. and i hvnt done lit and gp yet. gosh.

archery was super fun!! haha. come to think if it, in the beginning we were kindda reluctant to even carry on with the programme. as it turns out, we all had fun =))
it was kind of stiff in the beginning and the instructor kept saying my posture was not straight and i kept puting the arrow wrongly. haha. but in the end, im proud of myself for being able to get the arrows into the circles. =))

still hvnt gotten any other results yet. and other tests keep springing up - mly and lit. wahh. i suppose we might be getting back lit or gp or econs tomorrow. though econs doesnt really sound so nice since i heard quite a number of people failed. shucks.

unwelcomed thoughts keep running through my mind. and it kind of scares me to find out the truth. i never realised how much it affect me. gosh. i just wish something good will happen - soon =/

boo bleargh shucks
day started out okeey. eh wait. it didnt. so yeah. the day started out bad. and the whole day followed suit. got back maths results. it sucks. somehow reminded me of secondary school's amaths.
had to endure 2 hrs of malay. boring lah. and econs made everyone sleepy. boo.
rushed off to the sc rm. got the contact list of the hs exco and we started calling. it was okey calling the j1s, except for some parts where -
" investiture? whats investiture? "
" erm okey. so is there any practices i have to attend? "
" sat? why sat? why not fri? after school lah "
" ahh. kk. 2mrw after school then i call you then u show me where lah "
ahh. seriously
at least there was one guy who was super courteous lah. as soon as he picked up the phone, he was all .. erm.. nice lah. haha.
okeyokey. enough about the phone calls.
for some unknown reason was feeling abit down on the way home.
i got irritated.
i wonder which words of " stop it " dont you understand? its getting on my nerves.
and for some unknown reason, my mind strayed back to the past. eargh.
there's that sport thingy tomorrow. archery. gosh. what the fish was i thinking lah, signing up for that.
i just dont want to make a fool out of myself

boo. bleargh.
today was a so-so day.
rushed to school, think i would be late for the 10am. just to find out that the meeting was pushed to 11am. ahh. then the mini marathon was for nothing. haha. it seems like we're now good friends with the security guards since we keep going back even on holidays. haha. he even remembers our names. but they are nice lah - at least they are friendly. hehe.

started out trying to find out the hand signs. ended up making a fool of myself doing the steps for the item. haha. but was hilarious. i think we wee making too much noise, but then again, who cares?!? haha =))

headed off to amk. but stopped to get some plaster for my poor foot. which proved to be a stupid move. ahh!! still frustrated over the whole thing. if only we hadnt wasted time, we might even have been in the same cabin. ahh!! thinking it over, it may/may not be fate tt i didnt see him. oh geez.

moving on, nancy drew was super nice. ned is soo super cute lah. haha. and i think there is something about amk. seem to be bumping into so many people. yl(though i didnt see him), him(mad was the only one who saw him), even arvin, iffa and ruz,helmi and haziq (gosh they were studying lah!! super shocked =/)

had to drag myself back to school. met some bitches on the train. seriously they were super annoying. they were gossipping abt other ppl in such loud voices as though their target couldnt hear them. sheesh. u wan to bitch go somewhere else lah, or at least keep ur voices down. bleargh

i think just talking about today is giving me a headache. i really do hope tomorrow will be better. but i have a feeling it may not be so - with the results most probably out tomorrow. gossh..



im beginning to think that all that happened may not be as good as i thought

its kindda depressing. so many of my contacts beng upset over the block test results. yesterday i didnt want to check them out yesterday - i didnt dare in fear of bursting into tears infront of the computer. but decided to just go and check it out a few seconds ago. and... there wasnt any marks keyed into the results. so yeah. i have no idea why its so slow for my class. or perhaps its better not knowing YET.
im feeling freaking nervous over this. and im sure that by faking ignorance ove rthis whole thing is not going to help in any way.

i think we all need abit more colour in this life. courtesy is one of them. after taking the resuls from the masjid - got 3rd again, went to the library. and the bus driver was so nice to greet all the passengers when they boarded the bus =))
and.. after that went to the supermarket near home. ive come to realise that the fish mongers are one funny bunch of people. constantly cheerful and once one of them asked mum if she wanted to buy a piece of eel since she told him i liked them. haha. he held it up and since its slippery, it just sort of slipped through his gloves. and when we moved away after getting the fishes, he said goodbye and thank you in a cheerful manner. wahh. i think courtesy is getting rare nowdays and it was nice hearing it today =))

im getting the jitters in my stomach thinking of the results. and theres maths tutorial on tues. oh no. =/